Tuesday, April 28, 2009

To Buy or not the buy?

To buy or not to buy? This is the question i've been pondering at least 18 months. That's right...do the math, that means I've been thinking about it since way back in 2007.
????????????
I just can't decide! When I moved back to Columbus from Chicago, I had literally told myself that I would go back to the ci-tay in a year. Well that was a rough year for me. I didn't/couldn't find a "real" job for almost 6 or 7 months. So I spent my days working at a makeup counter and waitressing (good ole fallback:)
So then another year went by and I finally had some greenbacks, but still not a ton of work experience. Moving to Chicago with little or no "real" work experience is silly and would've put me back to square one.
So FINALLY at the end of '07 I thought I would start looking for a place to call my own. Literally I looked at my 12-14 condos over the course of a few months. It made my head spin.
And the downtown in Columbus is not the downtown in Chicago,
and that truly is my main roadblock.
Well the time has come that I MUST make a decision about this. MUST.
If I rent, it's a matter of finding something reasonable that is nice and newer and is in a desirable area.
If I buy, i've got to get a home loan, find something nice and newer, in a desirable area, that will hold it's value, is close but not too close to my family, is close-ish to work.
See the variables?
One clearly has more demands er-requirements.
I think I made up my mind. I think renting for 6 months and figuring out the relocation during that time and if i'm not going anywhere i'll buy.
Yep, that is the decision. I'm sticking with that plan. For now anyway:)

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Today

I am convinced today is not going to suck. Why you ask? Well, because I won't let it. The last few days have been hellish for me. And the thing is I usually don't let every bad situation get to me. I try and "rise above it" and just trust that everything happens for a reason. Lately that has been a struggle and I find myself giving in to negativity. We all know the cycle. Anger, negativity, hopelessness, more anger...it goes on and on. I've been giving in to that cycle more and more since January and now basically i'm sick of being sick and tired and angry.
I've really got alot of good things going for me and even better things ahead. So even if I can't see them right now, it's not a good time to give up and bury my head (even though I really want to.)
So i'm already having a good day just realizing all of this. Wow i'm wise! HA HA!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I'm back...

I took a couple of unintentional days off of blogging. This weekend I was back in Nashville for Samantha and Seth's wedding. Sam and her family are very close friends of our family. Our moms were both friends in South Africa, and then coincidentally both moved with their families to the US. The wedding was beautiful and accessorized in my favorite color PINK!

Here are some pics from the wedding day. There are many more on facebook!














Happy Anniversary To Me!

Today is my 3-year anniversary here at Nationwide.
No need to celebrate...it's administrative professionals week.
Maybe I will get something? Maybe not?
All but 4 or so people here get on my last nerve, so I guess i'm better off with nothing...ha ha! Just kidding-of course I want stuff!
So anyways, 3 years and counting. Will I be here 3 more? Your guess is as good as mine!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Big Brother Update...

So the people at BB think i'm "too nice." That's what the producer who called me said. Our conversation went like this:
P: We really like you, but we're not convinced you're tough enough.
RC: Oh i'm plenty tough, that's hard to deduce in a 10 minute conversation
P: Well you're really pretty and usually the pretty girls are less nice
RC: So i'm not making it because i'm pretty and nice?
P: There are just alot of pretty nice girls around you can understand.
RC: I guess....thanks

So the moral of the story? Always be mean! Unless you're me of course!

Writers Block

I've writers block all day, right up until now-when I want to go to sleep. This is mainly because
1. I am super tired
2. I've got a freight train of thoughts speeding through my mind.
Let me explain #1. I tossed and turned all night due to a wonky ass dream I had. I will spare you the details because otherwise you may not look at me the same.
Let me explain #2. So many things going on I could not fall asleep! This happens from time to time, but I could not fall asleep!
So here I am with all the things i've been wanting to say on BOTH my blogs. Looks like there's no sleepytime for me anytime soon:(
But look for new blogs on both sites. Other site if you're brave http://thetwizone.blogspot.com/

Stuff White People Like

I just copied this from an email I got. I had to...me+Ed Hardy shirts=no like!

Stuff White People Like
#124 Hating People Who Wear Ed Hardy
Posted: 13 Apr 2009 04:29 PM PDT
Often it can be easier to find common ground with a white person by talking to them about something you both hate. Discussing things you both like might lead to an argument over who likes it more or who liked it first. Clearly, the safest route is mutual hatred. When choosing to talk about something that white people hate, it’s best to choose something that will allow white people to make clever comments or at the very least feel better about themselves. Currently, the easiest way to do that is to ask a white person for their thoughts on people who wear Ed Hardy.


Ed Hardy is a clothing company that makes a wide range of expensive t-shirts, hoodies, and jeans. These clothes are notable for their use of elements from classic tattoo design such as skulls, hearts, and dragons. On the surface, the use of the words “classic” “tattoo” and “t-shirt” would seem like a logical fit for white people, but it is not. White people hate these clothes unilaterally and it is advised that you merely accept that at face value. If you were to ask a white person to explain why a regular size dragon logo is ok but one that goes around the neck is not, you would be trapped in a long and fruitless conversation.
To put this in proper perspective, Ed Hardy is so hated by white people that it cannot be worn ironically. This is no small feat. As it stands, the only other entries in this category are Nazi Uniforms, Ku Klux Klan Robes, and self-tanner.
Since you cannot in good conscience have an Ed Hardy themed party, the best way to make use of this white hatred is to give your stories a little more appeal to white people.
For example, if you take the reasonable but not compelling story: “I got cut off in traffic this morning and when I honked the guy gave me the finger,” and replace it with: “I got cut off in traffic this morning by this guy in an Ed Hardy shirt. I honked and then he gave me the finger!” The story will become sixty percent more interesting to white people because it allows them to make a witty response like: “I guess that douche bag had to get to a UFC party or a nightclub event he was promoting.”
Follow this up with a laugh, a high five, and a compliment about the acceptable shirt the white person is wearing and you will find yourself with a new friend.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Big Brother

It's not my favorite show but one of my life's goals is to be on a reality show, so I tried out. Big Brother brought their audition crew right here to Buckeye City appropriately at the Buckeye Cafe. I have nothing to lose or gain by being on besides fulfilling a personal goal. Of course my ultimate goal is to be on Survivor. I could win. No questions asked.
So yesterday I put on my pretty face and went down to wait in line with the other hopefuls. My first thought was "I got this." The folks in line seemingly were not the stuff reality show goodness is made of (i'm judging solely on looks.) I made some friends in line, which is what happens when you wait outside for 3 hours on a somewhat chilly morning. After 3 we make it inside to wait another 1 until someone takes our mugshot (a random # assigned to us by a PA who resembled Tracy Turnblad.) Then we go in to meet a producer in groups of five. Said producer is very perky but quite unfriendly and makes it clear that she is the star until we of course make it on to the show:)
Overall I think I made a good impression...more on this to follow.
Now just waiting on the call back, and waiting, and waiting and waiting...

Friday, April 10, 2009

Too Much

I've had much too much going on this week. Work is a cluster as usual. And a boring cluster. Family situations are just way out of control. You know it's bad when I can't even write what i'm feeling. Writing has always been my outlet. I'm not very externally emotional...you know I don't cry, or throw temper tantrums. I internalize EVERYTHING. And then I articulate my hate/love/indifference on "paper."
So this week has been so bad I haven't even been able to do that! Ugh! I'm taking a baby step and at least starting the dialogue on how utterly clueless I am right now to get any kind of normality, vision and control in my life. I've thought about checking into a hotel and just kind of zoning out and coming up with a game plan. It sounds selfish but I really need to focus on me and what I want. Want I want to do (career wise) where I want to live (move out of state?) All of these things I just cannot do in my present situation. There is far too much drama and i'm having to do far too much middle-manning to be able to do anything for myself right now.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Funny Story

I have four nieces and nephews: Madeleine (9) Jonah (7) Aidan (5) Sophie (2) they are the loves of my life for real. I'd step in front of a bus for any of them...
They've been on spring break this week and took a trip to Iceland to visit their dad/my brother since he isn't back in the States yet. Last night at dinner I was asking them how it was etc, and I asked Maddie about her old basketball coach (when I visited last fall they were convinced he was my boyfriend.)
This is how the conversation went:
Me - did you see the basketball coach?
Maddie - your boyfriend? No...wait how can you have two boyfriends?
Jonah - Yeah she has two!
Maddie - the basketball coach and Robert Pattinson!
Aidan - is Robert the guy who looks like this guy? (runs to get the Twilight dvd cover, points to Edward)
Me - Yes that's Robert Pattinson
Aidan - Your boyfriend is a vampire?
Jonah - He was in Twilight? I love vampires! Can we watch it?
Me - uh...i'm not sure...uh probably not...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

So long Megan

Dear Megan,


I had such high hopes for you...you were my favorite girl in the competition. B

ut you could never really hold it down except the night you were sick. Also your dancing was very strange and awkward but I guess that was part of your charm.

Well the last two nights you have acted like a fool. C'mon...your song sucked Tuesday night and when faced with criticism your response was egotistical and silly. And what was up with last night? Did you take on too many xanax? The squawking and and strange motions were too much. Not to mention the verbal diarrhea and obnoxious waves to the camera.

What a let down. It was truly your time to go. But you should know that however pretty you are, the way you acted last night is the way you'll be remembered, and that's no way to make it big!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I want to be famous!


Did that title fool you? I've always wanted to be famous. As a kid I would dream about entering Star Search, but I couldn't sing and I couldn't dance (yet.) I wanted to be a model and idolized Cindy Crawford. But then I pretty much stopped growing in the 5th grade and that dream was stomped on too.
Fast forward to college and reality tv. Oh did I want to be on the Real World...but there was NO WAY I could act the fool and not get disowned by my parents. Looking back they would probably be over it by now and I should've gone for it. The Bachelor? Way too many pool/drinking parties I couldn't explain away. But I guess there's still time for that one?
This is all leading up to me talking about this photo shoot I did on Sunday. My friend Holly is starting a website for her salon and asked a few of us friends/clients to model our hair. Awesome. Fun.
Some of the highlights included: getting our nails done by an awesomely funny manicurist and airbrush makeup. That's right...airbrush makeup! I may never be in another photo shoot, but at least i've gotten my makeup literally painted on my face.
Here are some of the amateur pics from the day! Enjoy!

Ever Feel Like This?

I'm sure we've all been there. This song by Third Day sums up how I feel sometimes...
My life has led me down the road that’s so uncertain
And now I am left alone and I am broken,
Tryin’ to find my way, tryin’ to find the faith that’s gone
This time, I know that you are holding all the answers
I’m tired of losing hope and taking chances,On roads that never seem,
To be the ones that bring me home
Give me a revelation, Show me what to doCause
I’ve been tryin’ to find my way, I haven’t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without You
I’ve got nothing without You
My life has led me down this path that’s ever winding
Through every twist and turn I’m always finding,That I am lost again (I am lost again)
Tell me when this road will ever end
Give me a revelation, Show me what to do
Cause I’ve been tryin’ to find my way, I haven’t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without You
I’ve got nothing without
I don’t know where I can turn Tell me when will I learn?
Won’t You show me where I need to go Oh oh Let me follow Your lead,
I know that it’s the only way that I can get back home
Give me a revelation, Show me what to do Cause I’ve been trying to find my way,
I haven’t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here, Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without You
I’ve got nothing without You
Oh, give me a revelation