The Happiness Project

It's the title of the current book i'm reading. When I first heard about this book, I was super excited for many reasons as i'm always on a search for happiness! I started reading it last week since we were Florida bound and I always get a couple of books in while we're down there.
As expected this book is great! I had read mixed reviews about the author since she was from a pretty wealthy family and making a career as a writer in NYC many people thought it was odd she was giving advice on happiness since she already seemed to have all the ingredients for it.
Oh well...this book is easy to understand, filled with quotes (you know how I love my quotes) and just alot of really good stories and ideas. Everytime I pick it up, I get a new idea for something. It's not so much a self help book, but a "hey this is what I did and it worked for me" book.
So with that said, i've already got a few ideas going for my own Happiness Project! Can't wait to share them with you!

Trying to fit a square peg into a round hole

This is seriously how I feel right now. Honestly I just keep asking myself "what am I doing wrong?" For a very long time I have not felt like my best was not good enough. But right now, I can come up with nothing that is good. I'm in more than just a funk. The reality is that things are not going well for me right now. Personally, professionally...all the ally's are not giving me anything to hang on to...it's very sad. I'm in a constant state of feeling sorry for myself and in a more constant state of trying to not feel sorry for myself. The contradiction itself is enough to cause my heartbeat to race.
I am a glass half full person. But as we speak (well I type and you read) my glass is literally half empty. I dunno what to do? Really I don't? I'm trying to quote Bible verses, and stay busy, and exercise, and eat right, and spend time with those that matter...but it's just not adding up:(
I thought...maybe if I go on a vacation? What if I went to Chicago for the weekend? But then I think "I shouldn't travel because what if something happens with work? I'll be mad I spent the money!" But then the me that's always sunny thinks "everything will be fine, and you should surround yourself with people and things that you love."
This post is so depressing...i'm sorry! But, I do feel better getting a little of it out there:)

The Year in Review - March

So March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb? Or is that May? Anyway...from what I can remember March was also pretty good. It started out with Kim and my annual trip to Florida to visit her rents who vacation there every year. This year we traveled with Abigail who was going down to visit her dad at the Sun-N-Fun Park (yes you read that correctly.)

Then shortly after that I drove with my mom to Nashville for Sam's wedding shower.

Also in between those two things there was a work dinner. Now i've gone to many work dinners before, but this one was significant. Someday, maybe someday I will tell you why.

Also there was the photo shoot for Holly's website where we got to pretend we were famous for a day and have our hair and makeup done. It was glamorous, fabulous and fun!

Mexico Recap

Holy mole!! Can't believe I didn't do a recap of this trip yet. Actually I can. I've been on the go since I got home very late last Monday night. Tis the season, right?
So here's Mexico in one word or phrase:
Airport, 5 AM. Chicago, 7 AM. Meeting up with the girls. Chatting. Plan to PV. Are we there yet? Hot and humid! Red light/green light. Holy panhandlers. Cab Ride. Fiesta Americana. Upgrading to the 9th floor. Walking to Soriana. Unpacking. Showers. Going to the Malecon. Dinner? Sleep! Vallarta Adventures! Whale watching. Snorkeling! Ahhh opposite currents:( Lunch buffet. Cocktails. Feliz Cumpleanos. Tequila! Nap time! Malecon...dinner...walking...sleeping. Breakfast. Pool time! Walk on the beach. Photo ops. Ay Caramba. Hilo. Zoo. New friends from Houston. Rough night:( Massages. Old Towne. OXXO. Pool. Nap. Showers. Barcelona tapas - best in PV. Malecon. Packing. Sleep. Pool. Cab to airport. More gross food. Plane. Chicago. International to domestic terminal. Plane. Home.

Vacation

I am going to Puerto Vallarta in the morning. It's my first trip to Mexico and my first vacation all year! Yes i've done long weekends away, but a real vacation has not really worked out until now.
It's been a long and stressful last few months and i'm actually excited about not having access to my email, facebook, twitter...you get the idea. Now i'm not sure I won't twitch because I don't have access to these things, but I think it will be really really really good for me.
Hopefully I don't spend all my time cut off from technology thinking deep thoughts!
Ahhh when will I learn to relax?? Wish me luck! Ole!